FEAR OF LOVING!
I am not a player or one that can juggle many men. I am one that can only love one man. I dream of a man that loves with all his heart, an understanding beyond no other, and a strong passion for one another.
I may be damaged but I am not broken, nor will I allow someone else to hurt me. Walking away is easier then feeling pain. The unknown is a scary thing sometimes. I do know I have faith in my Lord and he is always with me no matter what is going on in my life.
What happened to compassion for others? What happened to joy, hope, and peace for all? Why hurt others that care so much about you?
I am trying to recover from so much pain in my life and having a brokenheart. Yes, walking away from someone that knows me so well that it scares me is a big step. I could be in the wrong for this but it is I that will have to live with that decision.
Giving up the log cabin in the woods, a never ending love, and nights of sleep without fear... I pray I am doing the right thing. Goodbye
